Below are the 20 most recent journal entries recorded in the knavish wench's LiveJournal:

[ << Previous 20 ]

Thursday, April 8th, 2004
12:58 pm	dream time so yeah i stayed up relatively late wednesday evening writing with real ink remarking on how i hadn't dreamed in a long while that i could remember, only to fall asleep that very night and dream that i had been accepted into national theatre school for acting. that was surprising, but the more surprising part but wickedly amazing part too, was that one of my class mates was going to be one mr michael albert. this can only mean you truly are my male equivalent. you were wearing a fedora as well. all things point to this dream becoming reality. nite. susie. (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 23rd, 2004
11:24 am	whoa holy fuck its susie. so yeah i think i just unsuccessfully entered the ay community. so lemme introduce myself... "hi my name is susie i attended ay two years ago, but as an oac clung on to dear life as a t.a and general flirt extrodinaire. hopefully you all remember how retarded i am on a day to day basis, cause well, i do." thanks yeah i'm at work. i sell bras today. but i'm bored cause its windy and though you think on a windy day when people's bras can't handle the wind and their boobs are flying out of control they'd want to come in and purchase better support, that is not how my day is turning out. hey oh! drama news. lauren and i and eytan all auditioned for National Theatre School and are expecting our rejection letters presently. I also submitted two of my plays for the playwrighting program they offer and will hear back at the end of april. I'm going to montreal to see mark bendavid's graduating shows at nts, and yeah i dunno, if anyone wants to share freaky audition stories drop me a line. we can all talk about what the fuck we're gonna do with our lives together...? peace. (8 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, October 4th, 2003
7:50 pm	watching some good friends scream let me out. whoa so out of touch, haven't been reading the journals and was today bombarded with the vague happenings of other people's past days. i have retained none of the content i just read about though, i apologize. weird. what the fuck have i been up too lately? i don't even remember where i was two days ago. starbucks is so retarded i have to get out of that job as soon as humanly possible. and by that i mean next august. feel kinda pissed off right now. what bugs me it bugs me when my friends in university all over the goddman country think that i can just drop everything to go visit them, like i have the money or the time just lying about. it bothers me that its so friggin dark outside and 7pm. fucknabery! if i keep writing this way i'm just going to get crusty. i am crusty. and cold. and i have no overhead lamp in my room, i can't see anything. no more of this. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, September 19th, 2003
6:49 pm	WELL WELL! spent the last week compliling yet two more SHAKESPEARE SHOWS. i am janettes bitch for that, i think it should be official. well as i left them, they were beautiful shows, she may change them up a bit though, and my artistic sensibility will cringe. but it always always works out in the end. i'm very excited to see them. its true, i really am just teasing micheal and rachel by writing those last sentences, but hey, thats my job. rehearsals for dream continueto be hilarious, that show goes up on tuesday! wow i'mglad i'm just a glorified tech/medicore fairy. its all good. it'll be fun. wenttoshop at the village de value today. bought some wicked stuff all for the cheap, thus celebrating my self proclaimed year of the cheap. AND WELL LAST NIGHT WAS A BLAST. HEHEHE yeah woke up rather hung over, but that wore off in bout two hours. scandalized myself away with ms cooney and ms melanson. danced my little legs off, in perhaps less than lady like fashion, successfully kept curious males who were not sensational away from our party of sensational people. entertained shell and ange with my flirtatiousness with a gentleman whom i believe they both are rooting for. laughs. was good to see ange having a good time, after this whole eytan situation, it was really good to see her just having total fun, and not feeling crappy. not to mention the coons turns the big 19 really soon. that hat revival lives on! picked up two more outrageous hats today that in just a short amount of time will be both striking and absurd, simultaneously. could i ask for anything more from life? i don't think so. cheers (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, August 14th, 2003
3:07 pm	this is not my computer ah! in the office today using foreign puter with very tall keys, used to sleek low lap top key board this is scarily three dimensional. tori amos last night rocked. as per ususal she played three songs i did not think i would ever hear live and can now safely say i have. radiohead is this saturday with ms cooney and two whole durlaks. hooorah. finished de profundis and a lot of mr wilde's other works, and now am hovering between what literary adventure to pick up next. have of late taken to writing very lengthy post letters to a select few and don't know if this is a good thing, or an avoidance to actual creative writing that has of late been a tad neglected by myself. must churn out twenty page play of decent work before february. ha! today is lovely and sunny, took the pocket dog on a real walk around the neighbourhood. thought she would explode. now she sleeps from the exuberance and visual stimulous. mom is on jury duty. maybe she will see mr cusack. doubtful. susie. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, August 1st, 2003
7:29 pm	rachel are you listening? ms rachel . i think that you miss are supposed to come find me on messenger. my online name is 'sanna' yeah we needs to catch up on the thousands of males that are attracted to you and making your life insane. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 8th, 2003
11:28 pm	tuesday i may just become a hair colourist yet. had a pseudo interview today, for some sort of randomly created position at salon. sherri, salon owner, was impressed by my photographic ventures with portraiture, and may take me on to photograph clientel. and wash hair and maybe learn how to dye it, and most likely cause i can't get away from it, make cappuccinos. the bitchy part is going to be scheduling...i can tell. if i get it, i'm gonna have to break it to jay that i'm going to be part time availability once again. he's going to get red and veiny, and then make fun of me for weeks on end. ah well. i just wish he wasn't so zealous with the making of schedules weeks in advance. good news though, the girlies are going to ottawa. (except lauren :( but that will be hilarious and fun for sure. better compile some travel cd's....... if the hitch hiker is really hot...can we pick him up? i'll be lonely in theback. today there was no mail. i was disappointed to say the least, but that's okay, it only breeds more delight in the idea that tomorrow i will wake to mail for me. you see, i actually have a cohort in this, someone with which letters can be exchanged with. email is so not fun. snail mail is so amusingly tangible that it is by far one of my most favourite modes of communication. university is far too overwhelming, i don't care to think of it, so i just deny it right now. and on that note i depart. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, July 7th, 2003
5:19 pm	monday lane did some major cleaning out today, another garbage bag full of who knows what gone from forth my cluttered room. haven't tackled all of the closet yet, but i cleared up the top shelf and feel slightly moreliberated. watched a very disappointing special today on some mysterious marine killer that wastaking out a whole lotta seals, an hour of my time, and they still haven't proved whether or not it actually is the greenland shark. jesus, i felt let down. greenland shraks are weird, i feel really bad for them cause they've got these parasites that are attached to their eyeballs, and therefore they're pretty much blind, and the parasites look like worms, just drifitng in the surrent sucking on the shark's eyeball. creepy. sneezing is so refreshing. today is the first in 8/9 in which i haven't been at starbucks. don't get myself too comfy though, i'll be there tomorrow night. felt good, sealed up allison's package andits ready to send, haven't talked to her in months and i begin to feel like a horrible correspondant when that much time goes by. lauren is off to the cottage now, still no word on pirates of the carribean and whether or not i'm supposed to wait for her to return before i see it. I DON'T KNOW IF THAT IS POSSIBLE. I THINK IT MUST BE VIEWED BY MYSELF EVEN NOW AS I WRITE. oh well, the commercials keep my satiated....FOR NOW! i know silly obsession with most likely very silly movie but not everything has to be a brilliantly serious cinematic venture, i'm allowed to be simply entertained every once and a while. i hate it when the bank sends me mail, it's always so sombre, somber? what language am i writing in these days? who knows. the headaches come back a little more frequently now a days, and so do my trippy dreams that could easily be made into long epic novels. the nails are starting to grow back, they are little but noticeably there. i still need to embroider a hankerchief so that i may convince myself that the year is not actually 2003 but rather 1857 or 1814 or anyone at all. more period pieces are deffinitely needed. (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, June 19th, 2003
11:36 pm	blah be blah and highschool has now pathetically drawn to a drug induced exam written close. thank god and don't even rememeber writing the exam, only waking up at five in the evening fully dressed in a mess called my room. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 3rd, 2003
3:59 pm	telephone arrangement,s HILARITY and the ever present fear of misinterpretation are hovering round my head. delightfully i am bought and sold through so many socials i do not even know to whom it is that i belong today, i think there are many things being thought of about me right now and i am without all of them. in regards to that i havent even begun to formulate standpoint. school is dragging out far too long. let it be over and done with i say. unionville festival looms ahead this saturday and i plan to dress for success. much staging of makeup and fanciful hair is in order i believe. i will eat you alive. go thom yorke go. does he have an h in his name. he does now.should iniate so many conversations, yet so eased with the ambigious state. why must everything be moving and i content right now to be stagnant. yessum. i feell like i am constantly in the public. and have need to be slightly like the hermit it suits me so well just lately. blah. blah. blah. so many people bystanding my attempts to bystand. actually trying to save money feels good kinda like one day i can buy something grand or go on a trip. or do something out of the ordinary. acting this session don't really feel like it honestly, got no interest in anything just right now.cept i like this song but by the time i finish writing it it'll be over and i need to buy more cds i suppose but i'm so used to downloading music and just having it be on computer. want to buy the dearslately, been enjoying their songs. should go for a walk should call someone and do something but what what what. maybe sleep is the answer. i'm getting very drowsy. need to finish essay. need to gather illustrations. need to write up proposal. need to right up slides. need to complete this week oh so very badly. yes. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, May 16th, 2003
10:53 pm	grade ten. it is suppsed to be the year of comedy. then rob picks a play by mcivor and it is not funny. everyone weeps repeatedly at the end of the first act andthrough most of the second act. myself included. next week we view the absurdist comedy, "the suicide" i better laugh godamn! (Comment on this)
Sunday, April 27th, 2003
1:56 am	its early in the morning. and i don'tknow what time it is. i can't get up from this red crimson bed that you made for me. now those be some song lyrics. i've been downloading music illegallyfor the last two hours. i think i need more hobbies. i have more hobbies. i'm unsettled. i'm excited, not for monday, but for may. i feel like i've forgotten something for sure. i'm just not doing my homework. i don't know what to do with my time. i can't decide on anything just right now. \]\ i haven't tried yet, but i already can't sleep. damn. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, April 24th, 2003
1:16 am	cannot sleep i haven't been in my own room for the last thrity si hours. lately i can't sleep at all. perhaps body is like borge sedative goes in and i build up resistance til it no longer works! had to get homw from work to take compulsively long shower. had to primp for no reason at all so as to no longer feel like i was some sort of meat by product sludge juice clinging to ground beef seran wrap. um yes. great mood, too much energy right now. no one on icq to talk to boo. boo. boo. blah. hyper., couldbe over tired. never want to go to school again. got midterm, can afford todo no work at all in 2 out of 3 courses as long as i maintain art oac mark i will graduate with my 6 fucking oacs. taking brian o'rourke to prom. he's one of my t.a students. i am the older woman. whatever we just both like to dress up. top hat. ready. matrix so close to me watching it. delicious. should attempt sleep again. fuckery. THE FUCKERY! i rated someone today as a gosh darn perfect 90. it was satisfying indeed. kisses to all. i haven't felt this happy in long long times. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, April 20th, 2003
10:48 am	ah spring we all know what spring means at the fournier's! anger! the snow melts and the rage is set free! everyone get in on it, things can't be pretty and springish, they must be tense and hellish! yes another season has begun folks, don't miss it. tune in any night for the action. the ugly past revived for another go...this year looks like a doozy. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 16th, 2003
5:33 pm	tori live the next bestthing toseeing tori liveislisteningtoherlivestuff. whoa my space bar just decidedto snooze off forthat lastpart. amusing. and that part too. had overly existential argument with little brother. not theory, just blunt. he's trying to avoid himself and in theprocess angers mother excessively whilefucking up school and other things. i triumphed. he came home. went to the pub last night after work with boss, recenlty (as in 2 days) broken up with boy, and lauren and dora. drank with exceeding ease and entertainedhumourous conversation for an hour anda half. was glad lauren was there. don't get to see much of her fantastic self. have every song but one of the new radiohead and can say i find it very dark. but this is acceptable. have recovered some of my lost cheer. the corset will be ready in two weeks. going for final fitting on friday the 25th, am greatly excited. pondering what colour to dry my hair next. have an urge to go light. my nails areactually growing! work friday night with tristen and nick which should be vvery fun. i also get paid which is vital. (Comment on this)
Sunday, April 13th, 2003
4:36 pm	blue jean baby hmmm medicated states. migraine prevention / sedative. thats right i am sedated every day. well actually every night. my new response to how do you feel? "sedated" diluted. muted. watered down. paler. neutralized. defeated. these are not good things. but for now i must take them over the headaches. (Comment on this)
Friday, April 4th, 2003
7:24 pm	i went to shool 2 out of 5 days. however to my fisrt period class i went no days. haha my teacher phoned my house. this is the stupidity i live in. the sooner i sign up for flamenco the better. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, April 3rd, 2003
11:49 pm	subject. event. no. late.r/ tehnthen si. si. (Comment on this)
Saturday, March 29th, 2003
7:00 pm	my second cousin is in a coma, her flesh is trying to eat her from the inside out. she is nine. the third day of her coma was her birthday. they shot her up with twice the legal dosage of penicilan legal to be administered in any canadian hospital. she was going to die, so it wouldn't have mattered if they killed her. they didn't. today was the first saturday in like 6 that i didn't go downtown. i have fun on those outings but it was nice for a break. sleepy hollow was viewed. as was run lola run. i opened a bag of popcorn which exploded upon opening. i laughed until my stomach ached. then i moved a blanket and knocked a full cup of water all over the floor. more laughter ensued. my dreams disturb me more and more. they have been consistantly filled with odd mutilations. i can't go see the doc since its been black x'ed like the plague is back. my room borders the perimeter of the house, my left side right now faces that wall. cold air runs down my forearm and an alarming speed. water runs down my ear from a freshly washed piercing. my homework piles up and more teachers join the queue of those that have asked me far too personal questions. i am ashamed. just slightly. (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, March 23rd, 2003
5:19 pm	denim. i'm wearing a lot of it right now. possibly too much. but i like to buy little girls shirts from old navy cause then they end up fitting weird and for some reason i feel closer to tim burton. i have let so many things slide. i am starting to feel like a horrible person. i think the problem....is that i still want it all. "hi,yeah,,,,i'll take everything. thanks." my piercing feels kinda funny. i should wash it again....which takes like twenty minutes. forcing metal through cartiledge parts of the ear.....exciting! (Comment on this)